Blessed

the bliss is finally setting in; this bliss that stems from the uncertain nature of them all- i remember saying that there is beauty in uncertainty and this beauty has shown its wonders in my life. it's a bliss that comes because the family is overjoyed. im only relieved. relieved that i have not been thrown aside and ignored while many rush forward into places reserved for them because of talents. im' after all, not as talent-less as i thought :P

temasek jc actually wants me for Debate. i can actually hear myself laughing inside; i can't even speak english in proper sentences when im nervous (stuttering). it was eighty-five percent relief, ten percent surprise and five percent joy. but then the joy started to diminished because friends didnt get what they want and you feel like you are an arse because you are no more deserving than anyone else. am no saint, but i feel guilty- really.

yet bliss finds when the family approves and gives the much desired props and the sound of settling really begins. the past two days at mj was fine and i made new friends! so yes, blessings, much blessings and im truly grateful(:

and im' happy.