Ceased

when people die and you are still alive, you ask yourself why.
are you in anyway more deserving of a chance to live?
it's over/underwhelming to watch as reasons of your existence cease to stay valid and you can only watch on helplessly.

this Depression plagues, determined to rid of His host.

the hour beckons as hope faintly flickers
an invisible hand holds me submerge
breathlessly gasping for dreams that near
the towering sea flowers above

blessed be.
im' so tired.