sixteen years and 7 days

let's see, it's another 52 more days to prelims. how exciting :'(

it's becoming harder and harder to go to school every morning, it really takes a lot of willpower to get out of bed everyday and tell yourself okay, im going to go to school today. just the going to school part, is hard enough, not to speak of the study hard and learn in school part. sometimes, i just want to find an excuse not to go to school, just sleep in all day and watch tv. how i can just wish.

oh, i finally found my lost iPod and that's like a huge relief, it was like in the laundry basket for days. and oh, i failed my biology test with a score of 10/30, that's truly frightening for it really showed me that i can not pass any test without hitting the books. sigh, secrets really do weigh tons, don't they? tsktsk, many terrible secrets. i think im crumbling under pressure, & i don't need to be the person i don't want to be, so don't make me. it's eventually a showdown between the past and now, but really, i'll drop it, it's so not good an environment to study in and i really don't think anyone needs to be punished by things from so long ago. forgive&forget, right? :D

& i have not jogged in a week. i feel fat and unhealthy & the gwen stefani concert tickets refuse to come to be despite my countless sms sent & the headache's killing me & im afraid to sleep with the lights off now. i close my eyes and i see ghosts.

i feel so LOUSY now, like shit :/