wanderlust

from where i stay, you look out of the window and you see lots of planes fly by. they are easier to spot at nigh because of the lights and i have a new habit, to count the planes that fly past in an hour and take them to predict whats going to happen next. well, you know how when you always make those kind of mental note to yourself? for example, "if more than five birds fly past, i'll be able to get that A1 for the biology test yesterday" or "if my father returns home when i count to 10, i'll be able to get into the college of my dreams" or something similar. i don't know if anyone has experienced this before, but i have grown very much into this habit and it's disappointing me just as i know probability will fail me in the same way. calculate the probability of just five birds flying pass your house when a flock of birds fly pass, probably somewhere close to nil.

wanderlust. im filled with envy everytime i see a plane. explain it? someone tell me to work hard and stop daydreaming, motivation! thats what i need! going to junior college is not enough. simply inadequate. i need something stronger! =\