worldcup finals (;

damn it, italy won. the team that i support always screws up and gets sent packing home first it was USA, cos i supported landon donovan a lot, yupyup, but guess they didnt do very well this worldcup, they got thrashed and got sent off packing pretty much early in the game, sighhs, what a pity. they were ranked number 4, i expected much much more. so after USA's elimination from the world cup, i shifted my attention to australia. yupyup, led by gus, i expected them to win, cos i saw them played and damn i thought they were good. cahill, alolsi, etc, pretty fast on the field. yupyup, pretty entertaining to watch the australians on the run! uhhuh, so after their elimination ONCE AGAIN, i begun to support sweden, not supporting the team, but rather fredrik ljungberg. fredrik ljungberg, is HOT, HOT, HOT, he scorches. goodness, i feel so pathetic gushing over a guy, but really, his abs are so drool-worthy laa! x) uhhuh! ohman, then they got sent off by england. bleahh! so disappointing, no more fredrik ljungberg, ohgosh, such an eyecandy well, okay, fine. enough of the sickening procedure of how one by one, consecutively all the teams i rooted for got out of the game and went home. rightright, i bet that france would win, cos i felt that well, this time im always supporting the underdogs. ahahaha! thats right, i felt italy would win the cup, but really, i really didnt want them to win? =x the sending off of australia because of that biased referee during the australia vs italy match was too much to bear. gosh, such trauma!

okay, enough of world cup, its OVER. and yup, prioritization tells me, i should move on. study girl! study! no more football, no more distraction! okay!?! yupyup! went to school, guess i couldnt bear the stress of well...having my grandma sick. uhhuh, the doctor called this morning and said her condition was pretty bad, trembling and stuff. damn i was like so freaked out, i kept bracing myself for the worst. =x yikes, i just kept on crying, didnt know what to do! i dont know, its sometimes that i really feel so utterly week, and powerless...so lost in the jungle i dont knw what to do. really wish that some one would just appear and give me a map and a compass that will lead me out of this dark place. rarrgh, so depressed sometimes. classes were a breeze today, no tests for me cos today was the core electives test for sec3s and well, since i dont take a core elective, im kinda reprieved of the horror of a test. uhhuh. lucky me. so we slacked through the free period, after that was chinese, gosh, i abhor chinese. so i purposely missed it, its called truant, LOL, but well, yes, its what i would like to call euphemism!

after chinese was maths. well, maths was kind of potentially fatal today with the mrs chuah being so obnoxious and well...as a matter of fact, fierce. goodness, dynamite kind of fiery. yupyup, her lesson ended a little earlier than usual, and before the bell rung for recess. but she didnt make herself clear? so well, what happened was the people of my class just walked out of class and headed to the canteen. what happened next was a TERROR. she just yelled and screamed and shouted. gawd knws what else she was capable of doing. thank goodness i walked slowly and was managed to be called back to class...or else i would be faced with the prospect of a green form! what a pain in the ass. a blemish forever imprinted amongst the pages of ur reportbook. sighhs, after that was biology, pretty cool, i biology! its kinda applicable in reality, unlike maths, chemistry and physics? i find biology very very fun. yupyup, learnt about the heart today. all its intrinities and complexities, just make me wonder more and more about the wonders of the human body. whoever made us, must be a genius! hahaha. yes, up next was physics, dreadfully boring, i slept through the entire lesson. poor mr ong, hes a nice man, but well...hes just so unable to grasp the attention of his class! almost everyone else was doing something else unrelated to whatever he was teaching, kinetic theory of particles? who the hell wanna hear about that? =x yupyup, school ended shortly after that.

headed to kallang to do community involvement project (CIP) at minchong comfort home. sighhs, all the old men and women. they just sit around there, staring into the celling and waiting for death to come take them away. it pains my heart to think that something similar like that may happen to all of us. no more friends, no more family, no more health, no more energy, just so frail, so breathless and so close to dying, but not dead. sighs, its so tragically cruel, but this is the truth right? the unmistakenable truth is that one day, all shall die. no one walking this earth is immortal. mortality is such a boon and a bane, think about it...would you really want to be living when everyone around you are gone? and u are all alone, pathetic you. is it really better to be left behind than be gone? its like imagine, one day, some crazed gun man approaches you and ur parents, asks u a question, : would you rather me take the life of ur parents or your life? i really wonder, what will i answer. i know, the majority of the population would definitely choose the latter, thinking that ohh, i should sacriface my life, thats the brave option. but really, who really ponders abt the ingenuinity of that decision. to be left behind and watch ur loved one die is a terrible thing to happen to anyone. so, if it was me, i will try to say take my parents lives. yes, im trying to learn to say that. loving them so much, i wouldnt want them to be sad. being sad, is really a thousand times worser than pain itself, so maybe, just maybe death may be painful in its reality, but sadness by itself is tens of thousand times worser.

the old women i cared for today were pitiful. i could really feel their despair in life, their meaningless lives. they felt meaningless, old, alone and frail, all they could do was nothing, really nothing. they couldnt even feed themselves. i dont want anything like that to happen to me in the future. please, oh please, just let me move on naturally without any terrible things. im oh-so scared of the big future, please dont tell me its God's plan, i dont knw what's His plans are for me. i dont knw, therefore im scared. going off now, to study physics, didnt pay attention in class today, so i gotta go study by myself

byebye!

P.S i dont speak/ read spanish. so if u wanna reply to me, please reply in english or chinese? thanks. (: