gosh. another rainy day in this week. sighs! i dont really like rainy days, even though it's perfect to slp and stuff. hahaha. had PE this morning. errrr, pretty standard i guess, ran and played netball, i was goal attacker (G.A) tell u all, im just so nt cut out for ball games, basketball, captain's ball, netball etc. it just doesnt suits me...it kinds of become a screaming session instead whenever the ball comes within one metre radius of me. lol. me, faustina, yingqian, rx and sy got punished by running extra rounds around the court because we were late for class. lol. after that was mathematics, i pulled my chair and table away from the rest of them. somehow, i feel that isolation is going to be the only way i can learn how to focus and concentrate during lessons. hahaha. so extreme right. so on and on, i decided to be more lonesome and sit alone and stuff. so, today, during recess, i tried to go for recess alone and sit alone by myself. yikes, didnt feel good at all. there seems to be like so many people staring? i dont knw lar, lol, maybe it's just my imagination...but lol, it's weird. there were like i dont knw...7,8 people who came up to me and ask me why i was so poor thing to sit alone...and why was i smiling to myself. LOL. dont knw why...this girl apparently frm some publishing company came up to me and started advertising to me abt TIMES magazine and she asked for my contacts. hahaha. well, anw, the sit-alone campaign didnt work out too well for me after all...the rest of the people soon came to join me. haha. =D felt bttr aftr that. had s.s after that. watched some videos abt pyongyang, 38th parallel and abt the korean war. i hate wars. lol, so senseless and unnecessary. lalala~ there was chinese after that, the first thing that randy said was "pls dont use my calculator to kill anything today" HAHAHA, duh i wont lar! baba was being mean to me today. she kept suaning me. i dont knw whats wrong with her lar. having a GOOD temper doesnt mean NO temper okay. stop like being evil to me and stuff...bet u dont want people to treat u this way too right? why are u giving me such a hard time, when i say i want to learn to be a bttr person? lol, are u like really sick in ur mind or something? assembly was kind of interesting...had some foreign speakers to tell us more abt their cultures. yup! however, i feel that the NCC performance was so no link lar. waste time only. lol. back onto the culture thingy...yar, it was really cool lar. i like the learning the language part. hahaha. so interesting. went back to class to try to complete the decoration of the backboard...tsk. didnt do anything in the end. just went home. lol. responsibility and how dilligence works along hand in hand with responsibility. it just happens that, i suddenly realize im really irresponsible and lazy, therefore i cannot achieve the things i want. the process is, think of the stuff, then put the thoughts into words then you have to put the words into actions! i have this terrible habit of procrastinating, until up to point, when it's a little too late to rush, then there would always exist this notion of giving up. giving up, is a sign of weakness, i feel that desire to excel should always like exist in all of us, success wld only follow if there's desire. right?